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Living With Anxiety And Its Consequences

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 Our anxiety does not come from THINKING about the future but from WANTING to control it.

Living with anxiety and its effects

‘Anxiety’, such a popular word isn’t it? I’m sure most of you are familiar with anxiety related symptoms because according to guardian; – “Up to a third of the population will suffer from an anxiety disorder or panic attacks at some point in their life”. 

My physiotherapist and swimming instructor mentioned that my body is stiff. I must relax and loosen up a bit. Now, I do tell my brain to relax but the communication doesn’t seem to be flowing well between my brain and body. Result –> my muscles are still tensed.

Anxiety controls our life and ties us downAnxiety controls our life and ties us down

My symptoms? Well it’s a bit of everything; fear (which for me personally is the fuel to my anxiety) panic attacks, dizziness, body tremors and restless legs. My mum is an anxious person too and worries about anything and everything. Probably I’ve inherited this quality from her? Don’t know!

Being an ‘asian girl‘  has its own added pressure. Getting bombarded with questions like where, why, what, when, with whom, what time you’ll be back, do you have to go? makes it a thousand times worse. Oh did I mention marriage? I’m a girl, the eldest in the family and 31 (after 28 I stopped remembering my age and have to count every time somebody asks) and not married…I’ll let your imagination go wild lol.

Every time I wanna go out, I start thinking about all the things that could possibly go wrong. It starts off on a negative note which is not helping with my anxiety levels. I’m always fighting a battle and that puts me off straight away.

Instead of answering millions of questions and making them angry/sad, I might as well not go out. And that’s exactly what I’ve been doing so far.  I’m not the type of person who likes to give up easily but when it’s a constant struggle and I have to justify my every move, that’s when I end up feeling helpless, find excuses and look for an easy way out.

Excuses are the easy way out. But you gotta do what is right, not what is easy

It's the little things in life that makes a difference

“Life is like a sandwich!

Birth as one slice,
and death as the other.
What you put in-between
the slices is up to you.

Is your sandwich tasty or sour?

It’s a struggle to go out and see the sun rise or watch it set down. A hurdle, if I wanna go see my friends. Feel like I have a mountain to climb before I can set my foot outside the house.As a result, I’ve been locking myself in the room and crying my eyes out. I’ve been suffering from depression for a long time and nobody has a clue apart from my best friend.

Why is it easier to tell someone that you have fever, then express your fears, your anxiousness? Mental illness is tearing us apart more than our physical ailments and yet we don’t talk enough about it neither there is enough support system in place to help us combat this issue.

You may say I should talk to my parents and tell them how this is affecting me. I’m not the best when it comes to expressing my emotions to my family and thinking about it gives me anxiety. It feels a lot easy to share my thoughts with you guys, kind of takes that weight off my shoulder and gives me relief.

Sharing my anxiety story through blogging medium

This is why I started blogging. A place where I can freely express myself without having to answer millions of questions. A place where I can encourage you to share ‘your struggles’ and together we can help build each other stronger and better.

I’ve slowly introduced ‘positive changes in my life and I’m getting out of the house a bit more. It’s a struggle but I’m standing up and facing my fears a bit more than running away from them.

What’s your anxiety story? What issues do YOU guys face? If you don’t feel comfortable commenting, you can always message me.

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An asian adventurous girl whose 'dream is to travel' through Northern India -countries, places, anything connected to Himalayas especially Kashmir (considered to be one of the most dangerous places yet a paradise on earth). The mentality that 'Marriage is the answer to every problem' should be flushed out of our mind.

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